we are everyday angels

Hopefully Kia will get the email I sent her before this weekend. :\ I don't know how else to contact her, at the moment. *sigh*

Leaving for class in about half an hour. Maybe we'll get our marks back on our English papers last week? A good mark would definitely brighten my recent mood. As will travelling this weekend. And (hopefully) seeing/kidnapping Kia as well as picking up my sister to bring her home for a week. The weekend after will be Lili's wedding. Honestly? I'll be kind of glad when that's all done with. I don't really know/am overly comfortable with most of her relatives or friends. I find it kind of funny how close she and I are, when we never really hung out with many of the same people for most of high school.

What's also funny is that I've been praying more for Kia's well-being than my own, even with the possibility of diabetes looming in my future. I've just never really been able to pray for myself. I don't know why. I guess it just seems so selfish to me. I've been praying to the god and goddess for all of you, too. I've been praying that you'd all be able to find the happiness that I can't seem to grasp.

without you here, there is no colour - a colourless landscape

Studying for my two midterms tomorrow. Should be pretty easy. I think. Well, marketing is just 50 multiple choice while selling is 25 multiple choice, 3 short answer and a "mystery" question which I am 80% sure will be something on web selling.

Randomly, just as I look at it, it's kind of scary how many people I've denied to my private journal. >.> On the other hand, I think it really is better for me that way. Only the people I want reading that stuff.


Oh, and I am currently totally in love with the manga Doll; it's like a series of short stories that involve these extremely human like androids called dolls. I'm really loving some of the morbid twists some of the story lines take. Also? Loligoth costumes on many of the dolls. Beautiful. I've got volumes 1 & 2 and am really wanting the rest. Don't know if I'll be able to get them, though. Whole lack of spending money and everything. Ah well, maybe I'll ask for them when my birthday comes 'round or something.

keep on the sunny side

I want to apologize to everyone for seeming so bleak lately. I really hope I'm not getting anyone else down or anything. I'm going through a really rough chunk of life right now and (unfortunately) have lost one of my best friends, at a time when I really need her, due to problems beyond either of our control.

I just wanted to remind all of you that I love/respect you and even if I'm not commenting much these days, I am reading. Your stories from your lives or of things you've seen or whatever are my sanity line right now, so thank you to all of you. <3 Write about all the positives in your lives so I can be happy for you when I'm finding it so hard to be happy for myself.

I'll try to get things back to more normal and positive in this journal, at least.


Like, I'll just whine about how badly worded my marketing textbook is. Extremely. It confuses me so I don't even know what it's asking anymore. Very pity. Good thing the exam is going to be multiple choice. btw, counting down the days to the weekend. Am dying my hair thursday night and going down to Guelph friday morning. Thinking of which, I need to email my sister.


Here... a happy little meme for you (well, kinda >.>): Pick five...no TEN people who you could conceivably 'do' right now. No invented people, no dead people, no 'were attractive in their prime but not now' people. If they're on your list and you meet them tomorrow, you can do whatever dirty deeds you want with them and whoever you're with isn't allowed to get mad.

( oh, as if you couldn't guess )

Take care of yourselves, everybody.