I'm tired of being a good girl, I'm sorry

[gnutmeg]

My boss reminds me of my father, sometimes, and that frightens me. (One of these days I'm going to flinch away from him when he "corrects" me on something. But he doesn't know, can't know, why.)

I've been really feeling like shit lately. I realize part of it is that I dislike my job. It took me a year and a half to cry on the way home from CD Warehouse. It's taken me a month with this job. I think part of it is that I've gotten too used to having power at my jobs and doing things my way. I know a large chunk of it is just that I'm not terribly good at what I'm doing and it's driving the perfectionist in me insane. I suspect a part of it is that it's not in Canada. I must admit to being homesick a lot lately. Maybe I'm just lonely. I don't have a lot of friends here yet, either.


On the plus side, my infected toe looks much better. I think I may have cleaned all the infection out! (Andy, you should be proud!)

And! I'm going to London next weekend to visit sakuraso. That'll be amazing.


I think I'll do some CD shopping after I next get my wages. That'll help me feel better. I feel so out-of-touch with music right now.

Comments

[jenbowie.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you've been so upset lately. Just remember it's a "job" and isn't necessarily any sort of reflection of you (especially since you aren't in control of the situation as you have been in the past). If you continue to be so upset though, I would consider finding another one if you can. There's no point in being unhappy if you don't have to be. *hugs*

BTW, I just noticed your "A million dreams, a million scars" - I love that song/album. Scary Monsters has always been perhaps my most favorite albums ever.

[lirimaer.livejournal.com]

I suspect I won't be able to find anything that I'm qualified for or that I'll be happy with while I'm here. The people I work with are great (even my boss, most of the time) so I should be ok. *hug*

Thank you. :) Not my most favourite, but he does say some significant things on the album. Don't know how long it'll last. My name changes often to reflect my mood.

[jenbowie.livejournal.com]

name changes often to reflect my mood.
I know the feeling. XD

[arieldawn.livejournal.com]

This is me being proud

*pride*

Take care of yourself over there.

[lirimaer.livejournal.com]

Ta. I'm working on it.