playing your game by my rules

For those who haven't seen, I gave my website a makeover. The checkerboard was getting boring, and was difficult to navigate for first time visitors, anyway.

All the individual sites are in line for major makeovers/updates, too, but I'm uploading complete sections as I get them done. Let me just say TnK's soon-to-be look is going to be hell to put up in the first place, but super easy to maintain afterwards. Still not sure whether to put the BBS on TnK or not. The poll indicates a yes, but not a strong one. Will it be used? I'm not sure... The new layout, though, is going to be super user-friendly with drop down menus (not unlike LJ!) and lots of fun sections. For instance, I'm adding an icon section. Yes. Not like I make Hyde icons at all... *shifts eyes and pushes 1000+ hyde icons under the carpet*



I've been rather self-depreciative of late. Not such a good thing, but... I dunno. I just can't make myself happy. I can get an A average and still find other reasons to be disappointed in me. Apparantly I'm not living up to my own expectations, and that's the toughest criticism you'll ever get. I want to be more than I am right now. Will I be? Only time will tell...

not I thing did I see

So many things... making me feel bitter and withdrawn.

"No point wasting time on them." "Not worth my effort." "No one cares anyway." Those are the thoughts going through my head today. Are they true? It doesn't matter because they feel true, and that's what actually effects me.


<EDIT> I fucking scare me. <EDIT>

I want Kia or I'm going to cry. Oh... too late.

There's freezing rain outside. (Ice storm again?)

I want to hurt myself.

Volunteering was cancelled.

I was kissed by a boy.

I feel violently ill.

I got my Entrepreneurship exam back with a perfect score on it.

<EDIT> I received a package from Tali.

My mom shrank my sweater. (The big wool one I wear instead of a proper coat.)</EDIT>



This was my day. Two of these items are directly related. Guess which.