maybe tomorrow... I can't face yesterday

Put alcohol in front of me and, apparantly, I'll drink it. I've been drinking a lot again. This isn't like me but I'm just... not dealing well with things.


Anyway, we're in Saskatoon (yay city of birth!) right now visiting friends and family. I managed to get myself very lost while driving around today, but it was ok because I got to rediscover the city a bit because of it. It seems so much smaller now than when I was a little girl.




I feel so isolated right now. I'm surrounded by people I've known for most of my life but none of them are who I actually want to be around. He doesn't answer emails and probably won't want to meet up when I'm in his city. It breaks my heart yet again. I might get to see John, though, since I'll be passing through his city too. We'll know once I get a hold of him (aka have a chance to call before LATE p.m. his time.)



Hmmn... apparantly my laptop is not set to local time. I swear it's only 12...