music is haunting me lately

Starlight fades away
Seek out when the morning comes

Full of sadness
Growing inside
Growing inside of you

Tell me, tell me, tell me when you're gonna die
Tell me, tell me, tell me when you're gonna die
Tell me, tell me, tell me when you're gonna die
Tell me, tell me, tell me when you're gonna die
When you’re gonna die

Sweet Blue Butterfly


(AYA, Blue Butterfly)

::: open :::

forcing myself open
but you don't even care
how could you notice?
you didn't know me
when I was closed

forcing myself open
eyes too wide to view
blind from staring
will you want me?
my beauty blinds

forcing myself open
legs spread field and sky
does that make you see?
heaven's whore still untrue
I mean nothing

forcing myself open
this flower slowly dies
for its need to be seen
for you

::: Transparent :::

If I wrote a thousand songs
would you notice when
every single one was for you?

so I don't say your name
I'm still transparent

and now it's gray, collecting gray
like thunderclouds building
do you like the rain?

I stare out the window
like you stare through me

I write your song, notes appearing
like raindrops on my page

and words follow slowly
for you tie my tongue up so

But if I let slip your name
just once, a tattered whisper

I have this funny feeling
you'll see right through me
as if I wasn't there

my words will fall at your feet
along with my unnoticed heart