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decisions...
Mar. 4th, 2008 08:27 pmI am rather a happy girl right now. I've figured out the answer to one of my life altering questions that was forced on me last year before I came here. And the answer? Yes. ...oh, yes what? Yes, I'm going to go back to Guiding when I get home. Funny how I needed international Guiders to teach me that. I mean, I was REALLY close to leaving. I can remember phone calls with Jeremy just sobbing and telling him how badly I wanted, no needed, to get out of Guiding, and how he'd say "but why, you love it?"
He was right, the asshole. I fucking hate you, Jer, even with miles of space and time and distance between us you're still right. I hate you for quitting, we really could have been. But that doesn't matter anymore. I am, without you.
What matters is that I'm going to go back, and I'm going to have a unit, and despite the changes in Canadian Guiding, I'm still going to uphold the diginity and honour and traditions that I was taught as a child. Because, damn it, it's right and it's awesome and I love it.
That said, I went to my friend Justine's Brownie Unit tonight and did a chat with them about Canada and such. They also had their enrollment ceremony, so I got to see that. It was quite interesting. In a lot of ways, it's so similar to back home but in others very different. Yet all the differences seem to be mainly things that refelct the differences in the overall culture. What really makes me smile is that they use Brownie Bells just like us. ("Oh Lord our God... etc.") And their promise is so similar to ours. (We're talking like different turn of phrase meaning the same thing.)
She also gave me a thank you gift, which was unexpected. (I figured I may get a card or something?) But she got me this lovely pendant and bracelet. In silver. They're really quite lovely.
I'm also trying to think of a nice gift to thank the Guiders that have been so awesome to me while I've been here. Any suggestions? I've given a good number of them Canadian Crests, but I want a bit more. Yo, Canadian Guiders? Don't we have some sort of Guiding Friendship pin or something? I should see if I can get Noelle to pick me up stuff from the Guide Shop, maybe...
He was right, the asshole. I fucking hate you, Jer, even with miles of space and time and distance between us you're still right. I hate you for quitting, we really could have been. But that doesn't matter anymore. I am, without you.
What matters is that I'm going to go back, and I'm going to have a unit, and despite the changes in Canadian Guiding, I'm still going to uphold the diginity and honour and traditions that I was taught as a child. Because, damn it, it's right and it's awesome and I love it.
That said, I went to my friend Justine's Brownie Unit tonight and did a chat with them about Canada and such. They also had their enrollment ceremony, so I got to see that. It was quite interesting. In a lot of ways, it's so similar to back home but in others very different. Yet all the differences seem to be mainly things that refelct the differences in the overall culture. What really makes me smile is that they use Brownie Bells just like us. ("Oh Lord our God... etc.") And their promise is so similar to ours. (We're talking like different turn of phrase meaning the same thing.)
She also gave me a thank you gift, which was unexpected. (I figured I may get a card or something?) But she got me this lovely pendant and bracelet. In silver. They're really quite lovely.
I'm also trying to think of a nice gift to thank the Guiders that have been so awesome to me while I've been here. Any suggestions? I've given a good number of them Canadian Crests, but I want a bit more. Yo, Canadian Guiders? Don't we have some sort of Guiding Friendship pin or something? I should see if I can get Noelle to pick me up stuff from the Guide Shop, maybe...
