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I suppose some of you may be wondering what, exactly nutmeg does in the Netherlands when she's not out and about. Well, one thing (which amuses me greatly) is watch the music channels on her aunt and uncle's telly with her cousin, $ka. We especially enjoy watching either the VH1 80s shows or the TV Oranje (local sort of... unknowns mostly) and making fun of the terrible music videos.


Today, we also went shopping downtown (Den Haag), and fed bread to ducks. Yup. It was quite awesome.

::: Guardian :::

it's cowardly
the way you hide
inside this pain

I gave you my colours
to wear proudly
but you hold them tight

it must get tiring
saving the world every day
from yourself

your demons are fierce
but so am I
trust me to guard you

you let me hold your hand
why can't I
touch your wrist?

my ring is on your finger
and yet you defy me
I won't hurt you

you fear me near as much
as yourself
as those who've hurt you

I love you
why won't you let me?
I'm not going to cut you

my sword is out
only to defend you
and my shield is yours

be bold and joyful
like you want to, little lover
I won't let you fall

stop hiding
behind all the things
you only imagine being

::: King Bee :::

you wanted to own me
to possess all I was
so I pushed you away
now we only talk softly
in lightly pained voices
of the love that falls between us

flight is so distracting
when will you leave me be?

you buzz around my head
like you own the place
with a gentle murmur
of flower songs
as if you could woo me
with such fake colours

::: nutmeg :::

sunshine pumpkin kitten
is that what I am?
you hardly know my flavour
I am a bitter spice
sweetened by some other sugar

adorable and angry
that could be my epitaph
but not if you wrote it
you only see that sweet sparkle
which isn't me at all

aromatic and strong
but numbing to the senses
if you taste too much
and even poisonous
so why do you still want me?

if you plant me in your garden
I will not nurture you
my shadows will destroy you
all this for a simple taste
that you only imagined in me