rattle those bars

My back has been giving me a mild form of the burning pain that sent me to the ER last year a lot lately. I know it's still from the same injury, and I wonder how I managed to restrain it. It was supposed to be better by now. That's why I go to the chiropractor once a month. But, still, as soon as I get stressed my back tenses up and there goes the pain again.

I've been dreaming of my past a lot lately, as bad as any nightmare. Why are the people I miss most always those who've hurt me so much?


Although I always seem calm, even happy, on the outside I am actually screaming and flailing and throwing things within the cage of my mind.