temper temper
Apr. 7th, 2004 11:58 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gnutmegYou know, I think the world is rather lucky that I have such good control of my temper. Yes, very lucky. Because I can be a real bitch at times. Usually, my anger just fizzles out gently in the form of sarcasm and that's about as far as it goes. Or else I'll bitch about it for a little while, and then forget it.
Unless it's related to my computer, but then... it's usually not so much a serious anger as a frustration in that case.
When I actually do get angry, though... I terrify myself. Anyone who knows my little sister probably has heard some of her stories about being shoved into walls, over furniture, nearly down the stairs... off a bunk bed. Many things. And my brother... well, just the other day I stabbed him with a fork. My ex-bf could tell you how dangerous it is to mess with me. I think he might still have a scar on his leg. And my RL friends? Well, any of them that have seen my temper know to keep me placated.
It's because of things like this that I want to submit myself for psycho-analyical testing. I mean, all of you can see that I'm not normally a scary or violent person. Hell, I hardly ever even get mad. So what is it that makes my mind snap like that? How much does it take to cross that line?
I'm going to go make some icon bases, my own self-therapy to keep the temper from flaring when there's really not that much reason for it to do so. ...unless of course what I'm feeling is, in fact, a manic attack. In which case I will start crying soon, oh yes.
Unless it's related to my computer, but then... it's usually not so much a serious anger as a frustration in that case.
When I actually do get angry, though... I terrify myself. Anyone who knows my little sister probably has heard some of her stories about being shoved into walls, over furniture, nearly down the stairs... off a bunk bed. Many things. And my brother... well, just the other day I stabbed him with a fork. My ex-bf could tell you how dangerous it is to mess with me. I think he might still have a scar on his leg. And my RL friends? Well, any of them that have seen my temper know to keep me placated.
It's because of things like this that I want to submit myself for psycho-analyical testing. I mean, all of you can see that I'm not normally a scary or violent person. Hell, I hardly ever even get mad. So what is it that makes my mind snap like that? How much does it take to cross that line?
I'm going to go make some icon bases, my own self-therapy to keep the temper from flaring when there's really not that much reason for it to do so. ...unless of course what I'm feeling is, in fact, a manic attack. In which case I will start crying soon, oh yes.
