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Sep. 2nd, 2005 06:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gnutmegFuck me up the ass.
Seriously. Just because my dad decides he's in a bad mood, suddenly it's all my fault (personally, me) that I have a quiz next week and am unable to go to Toronto/Guelph until after class and that we're going to have to put off picking Kia up for a month if I don't go with.
Ok, I'm sorry. I know she's my friend and I should be there when we pick her up and all that, but if we leave as soon as I get home from school (which will be sooner if I drive on that day) then we'll be in Toronto by 9 p.m. or else in Guelph by 10 p.m. That's certainly not a horrid proposition. So why did my dad suddenly decide to change his mind?
He was also freaking out because he's missing a baseball game to go down and I'm "not willing to miss a class". Ok. A class? Sure. A quiz worth 10% of my mark? Not so much. I don't understand why he's always so bitchy at me. Doesn't he realize I'm a very busy person? He's not the only one with a job. Except I also have school and volunteering to worry about on top of my job. And any web stuff I do. But that obviously doesn't mean a damned thing in his world, so it's unimportant.
I've had a bad enough day without having to come home to more garbage like this. I just need to keep reminding myself that I'm gone once this school year is over. Go to Europe and then camp then Japan for a while... then away. I'm starting to get to a point where I almost don't care where I live as long as I'm far away from my parents. Is that horrible of me? I mean, they're not the worst parents ever... but I just have no connection with them. They don't get me, and I don't get or like them. Period.
Tonight may end up becoming a "Bowie-and-a-good-book" night. I just don't want to deal with anything else right now.
Seriously. Just because my dad decides he's in a bad mood, suddenly it's all my fault (personally, me) that I have a quiz next week and am unable to go to Toronto/Guelph until after class and that we're going to have to put off picking Kia up for a month if I don't go with.
Ok, I'm sorry. I know she's my friend and I should be there when we pick her up and all that, but if we leave as soon as I get home from school (which will be sooner if I drive on that day) then we'll be in Toronto by 9 p.m. or else in Guelph by 10 p.m. That's certainly not a horrid proposition. So why did my dad suddenly decide to change his mind?
He was also freaking out because he's missing a baseball game to go down and I'm "not willing to miss a class". Ok. A class? Sure. A quiz worth 10% of my mark? Not so much. I don't understand why he's always so bitchy at me. Doesn't he realize I'm a very busy person? He's not the only one with a job. Except I also have school and volunteering to worry about on top of my job. And any web stuff I do. But that obviously doesn't mean a damned thing in his world, so it's unimportant.
I've had a bad enough day without having to come home to more garbage like this. I just need to keep reminding myself that I'm gone once this school year is over. Go to Europe and then camp then Japan for a while... then away. I'm starting to get to a point where I almost don't care where I live as long as I'm far away from my parents. Is that horrible of me? I mean, they're not the worst parents ever... but I just have no connection with them. They don't get me, and I don't get or like them. Period.
Tonight may end up becoming a "Bowie-and-a-good-book" night. I just don't want to deal with anything else right now.
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on 2005-09-03 09:26 am (UTC)no subject
on 2005-09-06 04:37 pm (UTC)