::: Breathing :::

[gnutmeg]

my lord, it bothers me
that I have to be so alone
so constantly
I give myself away
there's nothing left for me to hear
my own voice drowned
so I can't even have that
I just want to take a bite
to actually taste it
when will there be something inside me?

I'm not sure my words
can quite explain
like Alice fumbling out for land
I know that once you told me all secrets
but, stupid girl, I didn't write them down
now the pages float upon the water
afraid to lose that breath
which alone remains to me
I miss the way you never touched my hand

sit with me a moment longer, darling
kiss me with eyes so trembling pale
feed me all those little lies that always disagree
I miss you
in your silence, I contemplate forever
my heart folds each time
I can feel you breathing

now I feel your breath on my neck
your lips against my ear
and though your arm's across my waist
I know you'll never touch me
that's why you're safe
I've heard your story, my sad ghost
but it's okay if you haunt me
my story is sad too
it gets better when you're near