::: Purge :::

[gnutmeg]

do you know how it is to purge poison?
the bleeding and the vomiting
that's what you've become to me
it's a slow, sickening drain
more than a little self-destructive
but it's the only way
you can hurt or you can die
these are the choices
you will suffer if you choose to live

when I met you, why did I drink so deeply?
sipping that unknown bottle
a girl my age should know to read the signs
or wait until I knew just what was in you
these sorts of things aren't hard to find
I'm sick again
this heartache is tremendous
to be turned over like another corpse
it's hard to find you're really not important
to the one who always swore you were

I drain my veins of imperfection
impurities unwelcome here
I'm losing so much liquid
that I think I'll lose my mind
but for that, well, you never really cared
you nearly killed me but you'll never even notice
I saved myself - I cut my wrists in time