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Not a great day to be without sleep. I've Tai Chi in an hour (though, really, that'll help) and I have to bake one last big batch of sugar cookies for orders. About a dozen orders over the month for Christmas cookies is not too shabby at all! Plus I'm finally allowed to work a little bit again. So I'll be going back to O&C, which I loved, part time. I'm only allowed 8 hours a week right now, but it's something.

Since I know there's many new friends - I have bipolar disorder and anxiety. By their powers combined, I also have severe insomnia. After an unfortunate couple of events at a place I was working at in Nunavut, I was badly triggered and now no longer sleep without medication but usually with. In this particular case, I didn't realize I was out of drugs. Boo. But I'm getting more today.

Just finished finally watching the third season of Sailor Moon Crystal. It's really different from the original anime, and I'm going to have to reread the manga again as I don't remember at all the purpose of the talismans in it. But the show seemed... all new? I don't know. Meanwhile, still hoping for that Sailor V show. ;)


I have a strong suspicion my window is leaking cold air and that's part of why this basement is so damned cold. Also why my lotus seeds haven't sprouted yet. May have to play mr fix it.
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Things to do when the insomnia strikes hard (aka you ran out of the good drugs):
  • lay in bed staring at the ceiling
  • waste time on Tumblr
  • waste time on DW
  • waste time on facebook
  • eat a tasty snack (apple!)
  • admit defeat, rise, paint that buddha statue that needs loving
  • crochet
  • try to sleep again
  • listen to music
  • hate existence
  • make yourself more icons
  • check all social media again
  • don't work on any of your in progress fics, nope
  • do some tidying
  • finally decide it's late enough that you can get up and shower and have tea
  • definitely don't try to be ill, it'll come naturally
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100x100 simple icons. Happy to edit on request.

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Moodboard || Jess Murdock nee Drew aka Spider Woman in Starlight.
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CarolxBucky. Lyrics from Emilie Autumn’s Fight Like a Girl
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These 4 hour chi work sessions are hard. Thank goodness we only do them once a week.
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I've been working on the text for my first podcast, and should be ready to record probably next week assuming my brother gets the site done. I asked him to do it because he's sort of in the field and having some samples to show people really could help him, but at the same time it's driving me nuts. I might as well do it myself at the pace he's going and with all the things he's asking me to do.

As usual, I worry about his future. Does he actually have the skill to hold any sort of job? I wonder...
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Made a few feeds of twitters, because goodness knows I don't actually read twitter. It's too busy for my poor brain.

[syndicated profile] spiderwomandaily_feed
[syndicated profile] captainmarvel_feed
[syndicated profile] mcu_feed
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New drabble on AO3: Tents

Funny story. I found it in a pile of papers on my desk. NO IDEA when I wrote it or why, aside from a brief scribble of the date. I suspect it's the opening for an abandoned menage a trois with Steve, Buck and Loki. Cause hell if I write or ship a pair that isn't rare. (Wanda and Vision don't count! lol)
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[personal profile] mrhiddles drew this for me ages ago. I like commissioning good art. :)
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Well, we'll see if it lasts, but it's nice to be back on an LJ-like forum again.

I'll be posting the usual here. Nonsense. :)

My tweets

Jul. 4th, 2014 12:02 pm
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  • Fri, 07:10: It seems people have been warned that I tend to work more than I should. I've been warned twice already not to go over 40 hour weeks...

My tweets

Jun. 28th, 2014 12:01 pm
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  • Sat, 11:41: That moment when you can't decide whether you should bring your sparkly union jack flamingo to camp or not...

My tweets

Jun. 18th, 2014 12:02 pm
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  • Tue, 12:04: Things I am always: 1) thirsty 2) in need of licorice

My tweets

Apr. 25th, 2014 12:02 pm
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  • Fri, 01:47: "I feel a great need to vomit... FOR JUSTICE!" No context for you!

My tweets

Apr. 19th, 2014 12:02 pm
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  • Sat, 02:32: That moment of "omg can you not be so douche-y" aka why am I still working here?
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Although I'm still reading up on LJ 2-3x a week, I know I really haven't been posting tonnes. I guess I'm sorry? It's just where life has gone. I've finally figured out how to my my twitter crosspost to here, but since I post there even less than here? XD

However! I am around on social media, still, should any of you wish to seek me out again.

FB: http://facebook.com/gnutmeg (my settings show weird to people? try messaging me)
Twitter: http://twitter.com/missgnutmeg
Tumblr: http://missgnutmeg.tumblr.com/ (I was coerced only recently...)


That's all for now! Ja!

My tweets

Apr. 17th, 2014 12:02 pm
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  • Thu, 05:09: 5fuckinga.m. Why must everything suck at 5 a.m.?
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I've spent most of my (spare) time this weekend reading through the old storylines of [livejournal.com profile] gondolindrim (thanks to the lovely existance of [livejournal.com profile] starkindlersays, that has them in sensible order) and though I know I stopped playing when I did due to health problems combined with lack of time, I miss it dearly. It was great craic (as the Irish would say). I guess that's exactly why I'd made that game - I'd missed the one I'd been in before.

It's sad how it just sort of stopped at a point where things were getting really good. I know, for myself, illness and lack of time were major contributing factors to stopping.

And these days, even LJ seems so dead and it's so sad and. Yeah. I don't know. Sorry. This sort of nostalgia starts to appear whenever I begin to drift into another depressive spell. Ignore me.