nothing but you

It's always the case - I manage to stay sane and happy for a few days, finally start thinking that maybe it's really gone this time, that the moodswings won't come back - that I get hit with a major down spiral.


I hate life like this. I hate getting sad or angry or badly depressed with no real reason for it.

I also hate that I don't really have anyone around me who cares enough to give me a hand so I can try and pick myself up, pull myself out of the mood that has trapped me.



Going shopping today. (By myself.) Maybe that will help.

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Spend $70 on myself trying to cheer up and it does nothing. Spend $5 on someone else and suddenly my mood is 150% brighter. Should have realized... I've always been like that. Prefer doing things for others over doing things for myself.


Guess I really am a good Brownie at heart.



Feeling nauseous, though. Probably from eating even more leftovers. ._.