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It's been a while since my last update, so I suppose I owe you all a super-long-update-of-doom™ Yes.
Went to see the psychiatrist on friday before camp, and was confronted by three of my worst fears all at once. The doctor I saw had been in a car-accident and was pretty badly scarred on his face and one arm, as well as having a prostetic arm and his real hand having all the fingers welded together. Dismemberment/disfigurement has always been a huge fear of mine, though I usually manage to swallow it as best I can and treat people who've experienced it like everyone else. However, when confronted with it while in a hospital seeing a doctor (both being HUGE fears of mine) left me fighting myself not to cry the entire time.
Camp went well. The girls all had a lot of fun, even though the heat was disgusting (it went up to about 40ish C/105ish F after humidity) and there were a lot of mosquitos. One highlight of the trip was the water fight with the other leaders in the kitchen. ^^
Uh, lots of work as always. I'm making fewer dumb mistakes while there. :P Bought myself a Polyphonic Spree CD when I got off yesterday. It also came with a free CD attached, so that made me muy happy.
And, y'know, maybe my doctor's right. Maybe I am somewhat stressed. I just realized the 9 things I have to do today.
Oh! And I've now got a permanent account. Yay. :D I've wanted one for a very long time. But now I need to pick 100 icons. >.> This could take some effort.
Ok. Maybe that wasn't as long as it could have been, but I've forgotten what else I wanted to say. Probably wasn't that important. Umn. But I will do a picture post for everyone who's been whining at me for one as soon as I decide I'm not ugly. Yes. Give it a couple days, that opinion changes with my mood.
Which reminds me of one of the things I wanted to say! On my last day of camp, I stayed up for the open house for the campgrounds to help give people tours and the first thing Coco asked me when I ran into her was if I'd lost any weight. I admitted I'd lost a bit because I'd been sick, but it wasn't much. Flicker was nearby and agreed with her that I looked really good like I'd lost some weight. That made me smile. I was also talking with some other guide leaders in my area the other day and they did not believe I weighed what I did. They both guessed my weight at 20lbs lighter than I am. o.o; Crazy, huh? My body is soooo fucked up.
Went to see the psychiatrist on friday before camp, and was confronted by three of my worst fears all at once. The doctor I saw had been in a car-accident and was pretty badly scarred on his face and one arm, as well as having a prostetic arm and his real hand having all the fingers welded together. Dismemberment/disfigurement has always been a huge fear of mine, though I usually manage to swallow it as best I can and treat people who've experienced it like everyone else. However, when confronted with it while in a hospital seeing a doctor (both being HUGE fears of mine) left me fighting myself not to cry the entire time.
Camp went well. The girls all had a lot of fun, even though the heat was disgusting (it went up to about 40ish C/105ish F after humidity) and there were a lot of mosquitos. One highlight of the trip was the water fight with the other leaders in the kitchen. ^^
Uh, lots of work as always. I'm making fewer dumb mistakes while there. :P Bought myself a Polyphonic Spree CD when I got off yesterday. It also came with a free CD attached, so that made me muy happy.
And, y'know, maybe my doctor's right. Maybe I am somewhat stressed. I just realized the 9 things I have to do today.
Oh! And I've now got a permanent account. Yay. :D I've wanted one for a very long time. But now I need to pick 100 icons. >.> This could take some effort.
Ok. Maybe that wasn't as long as it could have been, but I've forgotten what else I wanted to say. Probably wasn't that important. Umn. But I will do a picture post for everyone who's been whining at me for one as soon as I decide I'm not ugly. Yes. Give it a couple days, that opinion changes with my mood.
Which reminds me of one of the things I wanted to say! On my last day of camp, I stayed up for the open house for the campgrounds to help give people tours and the first thing Coco asked me when I ran into her was if I'd lost any weight. I admitted I'd lost a bit because I'd been sick, but it wasn't much. Flicker was nearby and agreed with her that I looked really good like I'd lost some weight. That made me smile. I was also talking with some other guide leaders in my area the other day and they did not believe I weighed what I did. They both guessed my weight at 20lbs lighter than I am. o.o; Crazy, huh? My body is soooo fucked up.
