I'm tired of being a good girl, I'm sorry

My boss reminds me of my father, sometimes, and that frightens me. (One of these days I'm going to flinch away from him when he "corrects" me on something. But he doesn't know, can't know, why.)

I've been really feeling like shit lately. I realize part of it is that I dislike my job. It took me a year and a half to cry on the way home from CD Warehouse. It's taken me a month with this job. I think part of it is that I've gotten too used to having power at my jobs and doing things my way. I know a large chunk of it is just that I'm not terribly good at what I'm doing and it's driving the perfectionist in me insane. I suspect a part of it is that it's not in Canada. I must admit to being homesick a lot lately. Maybe I'm just lonely. I don't have a lot of friends here yet, either.


On the plus side, my infected toe looks much better. I think I may have cleaned all the infection out! (Andy, you should be proud!)

And! I'm going to London next weekend to visit sakuraso. That'll be amazing.


I think I'll do some CD shopping after I next get my wages. That'll help me feel better. I feel so out-of-touch with music right now.