::: Snow Princess Versus the Ice King :::

you are dangerous
like jagged ice and
still water
I could easily become submerged
eternally in the depths
of your oceanic eyes
I become the snow princess
to escape your bruising beauty

your blue and sparkling silver
may make no claim on me
I have colours of my own, you know
I take in your winter
only to release
this clever spring from within me

like a handful of shining coins
your wintry ways
have more meaning than value
cold in my hand
I adore you more for what
you will bring me
than what you actually are

I'm dressed in white from head to heel
with a pink heart peeking through
it's significant
though maybe not to you
my ice king
who crushes me
with the weight of your love
trying to press me into
your shape

I will wear your white funeral
but in it I shall smile
your violence doesn't become me
spring is here
and I will find my freedom
in the death you thought to bring
the sun leads me to the river
where I will float
forever

::: Don't :::

don't fight this
don't try to understand
I will escape you, too
you were only a battle
in my life of war
can you understand?
I'm not quitting now
because of you
or your meanings

don't smile or laugh
don't think you know me
you judge me too soon
there is nothing there
but broken glass
can you understand?
I'll wash my bloody hands
when I want to
I've earned that right

don't pity me
don't try to save me
or I will destroy you
I don't want pity
don't need saving
can you understand?
I'm the willing victim
a causeless martyr
pain makes me

::: But Not :::

I wanted to write you a love song
but someone else had already used
all the words I'd wanted to say
well, that wasn't nice of them, was it?

the dream of a flower nuzzles your ear
and you echo its tranquillity
if only I could be so pale
but I am no fragile thing to break

just because I give my voices names
doesn't mean that I'm any less mad
but I would give you even that
and whisper it for your heart

travelling!

Okay, so this is nutmeg's schedule for the next couple months. (So far, I don't know if we're doing more travelling once I'm at uncle Dale's & aunt Joh's.)

May 11 - bus down to Bristol to catch flight to Ireland
May 12 - 3-day tour of Ireland
May 14 - fly back to Bristol and bus home to bath
May 21 - train to London, fly to Amsterdam (consider going to London a day earlier?)
June 15 - 25TH BIRTHDAY OMG
June 17 - fly back to London, enjoy for a day
June 18 - FLY BACK TO CANADA
June 19 - bus from Montreal to Ottawa