::: Advice from a Dreamer :::

Once I saw two dreamers
sitting on a sandy beach,
I wanted touch their hands, their faces
but my hands would not reach
so, instead, I spoke to them
and asked them to explain
the dreams that we dream
and how they bring us pain

"Pain?" one laughed
as I sat down
"dreams are full of joy
and cheer and circus clowns!
they teach us
the value of each day
so we do not sit
and simply waste away."

Well I got up,
and taking his advice
I ran off, wanting
to live my life
And you know something?
he was right
I enjoy each day
as I dream at night

This is probably not so good...

*sits in her computer chair, wrapped in blankets and somewhat satisfied with the fact she actually had more than 4.5 hours of sleep last night*

*decides to make a list of her symptoms so she won't forget later*

-insomnia
-extreme moodswings (more so than normal)
-nightmares
-insane amount of anger
-obsessive behaviour
-masochistic thoughts/tendencies
-lack of appetite
-lack of concentration
-lack of motivation
-shortened attention span
-often on verge of tears for no reason

Right. Need to see my doctor. I think I've said that, but I need to keep saying it or I won't do it. Having other people tell me helps to motivate me to do it as well *hinthint*

Well that was fun *rolls eyes*

I am no longer a prisoner of society!!! ^_-

Just returned from grocery shopping for mom. This, of course, involved 2 different stores (for the sales) and me the pseudo-vegetarian (I eat chicken but not any other meat) picking out all the meat. A steak is a steak, right?

But I got myself a bag of cheerio mix out of the deal, so it's all good. I am completely addicted to this stuff. *munches* I got the new flavour "honey and nut" it's pretty good, but I like nacho cheese the best.

Having sugar (and a plan) makes me feel less bad about the whole bipolar thing, I must admit.

(no subject)

*listens to waltzy-love songs and tries not to cry*



...

*is lonely and bored... again*


*wanders off to post more icons she made into iconaddicts*

hmmm... the effects of boredom

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	High
Schizotypal:	Very High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

According to some internet sanity test I took, I may have the following disorders:

Schizoid
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."

Schizotypal
Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.

Borderline
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

riiiight... off to find something useful to do.

found it! Glee!

Ok, this is from a really cute website I used to share with my cousins. It was a 'Battle Arena' for different people to fight against each other. (Original site here, then moved to new location here. I am thinking about taking all the old fights and saving them on my computer to possibly reopen the arena later, let me know what you think.)

This battle was Valhallen vs. Sailor Star Fighter yet somehow, both brought their partners and it got interesting. The cut is from the end of the Battle before the sing-along commenced.

( the Canadianization of an American Hero )

FUCKING GLEE!!

*totally squealing and giggling... has turned into a valley girl*

I GOT THE JOB!!! I'M IN!!!

*dances around*


I'm assistant program director at Camp Woolsey Summer Camp this summer!! WOOT! Kick ASS!! YAYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


*VERY EXCITED*

This TOTALLY makes my day. (Well, and meeting John and talking to Ruby, but this (and my ice cream) just makes it perfect.)